How to Smile

          I was in a bad mood and I just couldn't feel happy for anything I was doing. So I asked this guy best friend of mine;

"How do I smile when I don't feel like it?"

          He's a class clown, so he really is good at making people laugh. He also one of those jerks who makes fun of things you ask. I expected him to say something like, "I don't know, I always feel like smiling because I'm just so funny I caNT RESIST MYSELF GOSH, LOOK AT THAT PERSON IN THE MIRROR". But no. He didn't answer that question of mine to make it some kind of a joke. Instead, he genuinely answered it like this;

"You want to smile? Look at the mirror, then force yourself to make a smile. Make that smile become so wide and big so that you could see that golden teeth of yours. Then you'll spend the rest of your day being happy... with the realization that you are ugly"

          AND THAT'S WHAT HE SAID. I beat him up pretty badly for the last sentence he said, LiKE, DUDE, WHAT?

YOU GOT IT SPONGEBOB. I'M NOT UGLY, I'M JUST BADLY MADE. THAT'S ALL. I'M NOT UGLY. I'M NOT...I'm.. I'm... fuck.

       But otherwise, what he said has helped me through a lot. Everybody sure has been through a lot of hard times that you can't feel nothing but numb. That feeling where you just feel empty but you don't know why. Everything you read, you hear, you see, and you do just mean nothing because you 'don't feel like it'. 

        There's a lot of different types of people. There's the one who watch or listen to sad stuff to relieve their stress through tears, there's the one who express their feelings through body language like dancing, the one who pour their feelings into writing stories or song lyrics, the one who force their self to laugh until they just cried, and there's the one who just fuck everything and go eat and then sleep.

         Whatever type you are, the most effective way to get through hard times is to smile, to laugh, and be grateful for the things you have while other people don't. Even if you feel so small and alone that the world could just erase you at any moment... smile. Just be happy for the life you've been given, be happy for who you are, be happy that you're still here, in this world, still alive even from all the obstacles and shit you've ran onto. 

        The one to define your happiness is you. Not your friends, not your idol, not your haters, but you. You alone can make yourself happy. When your friend is not around and you feel alone and small and just feel like an absolute nothing? SCREW THAT. There's a lot of things you could enjoy being by yourself. Not all fun should be filled with laughs and jokes. There's some fun that you can enjoy by having a calm and peaceful situation. Happy because of your idol? Well, I do too feel like that. I always feel happy and cheerful when I watch Cryaotic's and Doom's videos. But what'll happen when they stopped making video? Will I stop being happy?   Raise your hand if you'll die when they really, really will do that

         Now, this is tricky. I sure as hell will feel sad and deprived. BUT LIFE GOES ON. YOU GOT TO MOVE ON. THERE'S A LOT OF OTHER THINGS YOU COULD FIND AND THEN HOLD DEAR FOR WHILE IT LASTED. Everything will change... and we just get used to it. That's what happen. When someone, or something you treasure the most is no longer there, there's nothing you can do but let go and move on. Thing's don't get better, you just get used to it and that's what make things better.... you getting used of the life you're in.

And when your haters drags you down with their stabbing and their criticizes, there's this wise woman saying;

"Remember only God can judge you. Forget the haters cause somebody love ya" - Miley Cyrus

well yeah, nice going

          For me, my definition of happiness is being able to accept everything that happens in my life. Being able to be grateful that I am born for who I am. In this family I have. Being in the same group as my idiots friends, having the most annoying but somewhat cute and sadistic little sister at school... and 'happiness' happens because I'm able to accept the ups and downs. How do I suppose to know what is happiness when I haven't experience the sadness?

         This friend of mine, the same guy I mentioned earlier was the guy who helped me find my own definition of happiness. He was the first one to say that sentence, "You're the one to define happiness, not the others". (Even though he quoted that from his Idol, heh. ORIGINAL BRO). So then I asked him what was his definition of happiness. His answer was so blunt and simple;

"Me? Well, if the others are happy, then I am too"

          I thought that, he must be very happy then. I mean, he made people laugh that sometimes I wish I have his sense of humor. He cheered me up with all kinds of stupid jokes he told me. Even he was the person who introduced me with the other idiots I am friends with now. He was the best friend I could ever get, and he was able to produced so much happiness from myself alone. He got a lot more friends than just me, how much happiness he was able to get everyday? More than one liter, of course.

But then again, there's this saying too;

"The funniest people tend to be the saddest."

         Why? 'Cause they don't want others to feel the same way they do. They want someone to laugh with them, they acted dumb so that people will feel entertained. So that they won't be alone. I often do something like that, and believe me. Those kind of happiness is fake. It's meaningless, only true while it lasted. 

          That's why, keep your eyes open and always try to be nice. Have a little chat of 'feelings' with your friend once in a while. Because really, you wont know which and when people will break down. No one will be 'okay' to hide their feelings inside for too long. So yeah. Make yourself feel happy, but don't forget to make others feel happy, too. Well "Lright. I'm outta here. Peace out.

-Just smile, you look pretty in that u little sweet pea-

-Best Regards-